Lone

Being the only child in the family
i realize i need to be independent since i was small
and so, i need to learn how to be independent since i was young

Being a single child in the family
i am really blissful
my parents pour all their love on me
i get most of the things i want and also things that i didn't ask for and even things tat i don't want =P
i get to do things that i wanted to as long as they allow
no one will rebut things with me
i get all my things as whole, i do not need to share things with my siblings as i don't have any

a lot of people are jealous with me
as they also hope to be like me
But
at times i am lonely
i felt lonely
there is no one to discuss with me when i am making major decision
there isn't anyone giving me opinions on stuff tat i doesn't want to let my parents know
there is no one to argue with
i keep all my things deep inside my heart

these are just minor

what if
i mean IF something happens to my family
i am the only one to hold the whole family
i am the only one for them to rely on
there isn't anyone to help me
i don't have anyone to discuss with, to share the burden
i don't have any siblings to support me

relatives are still relatives
there are still different from family members
the blood flowing in our body is different
no matter how close you are with them
you can't rely on them forever
they may help you once, twice, thrice
but not forever

friends are the same too
they cant help you forever
no matter how close you are with them
they aren't 7 24 ready for you
they can only mentally support you

i am not complaining
really
i am also not blaming on my parents
i am not writing this post to get any sympathy neither
i accept the fact and i am happy with all i have now

i am here sincerely thanking all my friends and my relatives who support me mentally all the while
especially those who were there when i need them
and my beloved parents who support me physically mentally monetarily and whatever -ly

but
IF
i was given a to choose
i will choose
to have
at least

a brother or sister..